Today I checked my pupils' homeworks. There's a lot of them who didn't finish the homework that I gave to them last Friday. Then I asked them to stand up while I told that I was very disappointed with them because this was not the first time the same thing happened.
Suddenly a girl in front hold her friend's hands and she's almost fainted. Without thinking much I asked her to sit on her chair and gave her some water before I asked the rest of the class to have their seats as well. After that the bell was ringing for recess time. So I asked her to go to canteen and bought some food but she told me that she didn't bring any money. I gave her some and asked her again to eat something before the recess end.
Later in teacher's room I asked the class teacher about her. One of the teacher who was also there told me that she came from a very poor family. Sometimes when they have some food, they will be able to eat. But if there's no food left then they have to fast until few days. Sometimes there's some kind villagers who will give some money or food to them so that they can have proper meals. But most of the times they are only afford to eat a little rice with egg or just a place of rice by itself.
When I go home, I cry like there will be no tomorrow. From the first day being here made me feel like I'm one of the unlucky people who has nothing to be proud of and I can't even accept the fact that there'll be lot of things I can't get here (including most delicious food I always have). I forgot to say, to thank Allah how grateful I am for the breathe that I can have until now, for everything that I have. Yet, I don't even notice that there's my pupils, my own pupils could not even get enough food every day, sometimes they have to drink only water to fill in their stomach when it gets bloated. Can you imagine that?
For all my friends outside who are in the same shoes, we might face the same situation and hard life as well. But remember, we are here because we're chosen by Allah, He knows the best. He believes in us.
For others, when you feel like you are the worst and the most unlucky person in the word, just remember those children who don't even have beautiful and proper clothes to be worn, no food to eat, no good house to live, just their own selves.
Be grateful, be thankful.
"Guru; kerjanya adalah pahala sepanjang zaman. - beloved father, 2013."