happy anniversary

although it didnt take a year, but at least i still remember this date.n it'll be linger in my memory

sorry

i broke someone's heart.and im really really sorry.. :(

I hate myself

I hate myself coz I can't hate u
I hate myself coz I can't stop thinking bout u
I hate myself coz made this decision
I hate myself coz letting u go
I hate myself coz missing u so damn much
I hate myself coz hurting u
I hate myself coz I can't be myself anymore without u
and I hate myself coz I wanna be with u..
not just a lil bit, a close, but for the rest of my life...

my dear God in heaven pls help me from going down..

p/s : sometimes the best thing for someone that we love the most is to let them go...

dont cry

now i realise.i mean nothing to u.it's rlly hurt.and i told to myself.plz dont cry....

"Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out"

oasis - pls stop crying your heart out

here i come

wuargh!~ penatnye! at last smpi gk kt marhallah maryam, yg plg ujung skali kt uia. ceit. jauh gile seh ngn bilik kuliah! kompem letih siot ari2 kna bjln pi blk klas.huyyo. x trcapai matlamat nk up kn brt bdn.hampeh. da la bilik kotor gile ngn debu debu cinta yg berterbangan di udara + sarang spider bergantungan kt sume penjuru. hasilnye stkt ne dh 99x aku bersin x berhenti2. kalah penghidap H1N1. rase cm nk dmm pn ade. smpi kol 3 pg br siap kms sume. ades. pnt waa ckp lue. ari isnin stat klas. schedule pn xtaw pape lg. department pn lom kasik. cmne la nti... btw, hope everything's gonna be ok. new life, new hope. pray for me ;)

killing me softly

2 more days to say hello to uia and gud bye my home sweet home. im gonna miss my bed, my teddy, my dvd player, and so on. hurm... wish cud be here all year along..

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pretty damned cold heart. dunno wut to do now.blurr. everything seems fading away. im very tired+bz - taking care of my aunt in hospital. she got breast cancer. its rlly hurt when we know bout diz news but wut's more painful is when i saw her suffered in silence, in front of my eyes. even the doctor cant do anything to cure this cancer and from her medical report, mybe she doesnt have much time left. i wanna be here, staying besides her instead of going to uia. and i wanna spend every second to take care of her.. can I ??

At the same day, one of my friend got crushed. car accident. he was badly injured. unfortunately, he left us. he left his family. he left everything. forever. and i cry like there was no tomorrow. wish i could see him in heaven someday..

and now.im sitting here. spending my time typing nonsense thing to cure the pain in my heart. alone. everything was ruined. its rlly rlly hurt. and it's killing me... !

oh God in heaven, pls help me... :(