A talking soul

Dear readers,
It's been a long time that I didn't write or post any update, just uploaded a lot of pictures. For some reasons I did not have a free time for blogging yet I was too lazy to write. Lately, life treates me quite well. But not too well. I guess so.

Last week I was offered to be a model for so-called Abhaya Fashion Show. It was a big opportunity for me to join the show and become a part of them. The fashion show was awesome! All abhaya models were so gorgeous and beautiful. Thanks to sis Jannah for giving me that opportunity and put her trust upon me to make that event successful. I enjoyed the show so much! Love them all. Muah ♥♥

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As I walk slowly through the new step of my life, I start to realise so many things. Being the one that you wish for and reach your dream are not easy at all. Thus, I have to sacrifice many important things in my life. Hence, I lost some of the people that I love the most. I would never know the feeling of losing someone until I never see him again. It's so hurt. Too hurt to be said. Few weeks ago, I knew he would go to somewhere else which was too far from here, yet I might not see him again. He kept texting me and asked when should we met. But I did not reply, not even say any words as I was so busy with my photoshoots. At last, he's gone, without saying a word, without saying a goodbye.. It's all my fault..Oh God, if I can turn back time, I would say that 'God, give me one minute to hug my beloved bestfriend.." I feel bad.. so bad..
Adam if you read this I just want you to know how much I miss you and the time that we've been spend together.. May God bless you in whatever you do, wherever you are. Trust me you are my truly best bff, no one can beat that.

Life is too short to be sad. But how if we let go someone that we love eventhough deep in our heart we really don't want to do it? Should we stop dreaming, cheer up and act like nothing's happen? People said : "When you hurt someone that you love, that's means you hurt yourself three times more.." That's true. Totally agree! Thus Im suffered for what have I done. Suffered in silence. I know Im not the best for you and you can't accept me as well as I am now. You deserve for someone's better. Im not a pure muslimah, yet Im sinner, still in the process of inhealing myself. I wouldnt be able to be your dream girl. So I let go the past, build up the future, hoping that there's another sunshine for me.. I already accept the truth and I will still move on. I believe that Im strong enough now to stand up on my own. Yes, this is me. The new me, and that's what I am.

Okay guys..it's already 5 a.m. I think I should off to bed. See u! x0x0 ;)

Just want to share with you one of my favourite photoshoot :)

p/s : Ouh sorry readers I forget to tell you that the photos from the fashion show will be uploaded in the next entry. Just wait and see mmkay! Thanks for reading. Love you all =)